Trouble communicating, again. Is it the weather? Need more houseplants. Creative block. Was there ever anything creative in here? Fear of failure hindering momentum. Social anxiety lurking, again. Hindering projects. Is calling art a project making it become leas of an art? Possibly. Lost in technical writing. Technical writing about creative possibilities may be hindering my creativity. Anxiety. Want to believe in good. Could be thyroid trouble. Need to visit doctor. Worried about the they. Stumbling into old journals. So many boxes of rambling. Should i burn or save? Silverfish everywhere. Silverfish and spider in car. Remembering life before social media and smart phone. More connected and more alone?